[that's how he felt. if gojo was going to kiss him, and kept saying he loved him, touya wasn't ignorant enough to realize that it meant more to his brother than some simple fling. and he was going to return that same sort of seriousness as well. might not be the same kind of "love" that gojo was professing (he's 15, come on, gojo, he's not thinking about it in that depth, give him a few years), but his fondness and affection for his twin are high in touya's life.
as for what touya would do if gojo actively tried to become the number one as well? that's an easy answer: he would keep training and strive to become even stronger than even his twin! to become the strongest. that's what endeavor promised he'd become. and even if his father abandoned him, touya knows he has to earn his attention back. if only he could become strong enough, driven enough, then he'd be able to show endeavor he was worth his attention again. that he could become the hero his father had told him he'd be. that he could achieve endeavor's mighty ambitions. even if it meant taking on his own brother in the race, touya would strive for it.
and truth be told, if the number one spot could be shared, if he and gojo ranked even, of course he'd share it with him! how proud would endeavor be if both his sons stood at the top! he'd be the proudest dad in the world, knowing his dream not only came true once, but twice. of course he'd be proud of them. and touya would be so damn happy, standing beside gojo in that place. might even cry. because sharing the spot with someone is far different than being displaced from it...]
You know what I mean. Someone who wants to destroy everything is a big bad villain. [touya frowns at his twin. yes he sounded like a villain! or even worse, like he was encouraging touya to become one, telling him to destroy everything that didn't say he mattered. that's a horrible, selfish way of looking at things, gojo!] Would you think someone who tried to destroy me because I didn't matter to them wasn't a villain?
[touya crosses his arms, halfway between a petulant pout and a serious focus.]
Yeah. I would. Because I'm your brother, and I'll knock some sense back into your head if I have to. That's what brothers do. They protect and support each other...
[even though it hurts to say those words, because he knows he's harbored some really nasty thoughts towards shouto, and touya's even been hurt by natsuo telling him to go talk to fuyumi sometimes when he came complaining about his existence to his little brother. gojo's been a major support in his life, so of course touya would fight him if his twin became a villain!]
I'd fight you to get you back, Gojo.
[sure, the idea of a "good person" is kind of vague, and touya's not blind to the reality that even "good people" have their own vices and problems. he doesn't think gojo's feelings towards him make him out not to be a good person. because he knows his brother would still protect people who are important to him in the end. the question makes him stare at his brother, surprised by it, then give him a confused, wondering look.]
You are a good person, Gojo. I... I want you to be happy. That's what I want.
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as for what touya would do if gojo actively tried to become the number one as well? that's an easy answer: he would keep training and strive to become even stronger than even his twin! to become the strongest. that's what endeavor promised he'd become. and even if his father abandoned him, touya knows he has to earn his attention back. if only he could become strong enough, driven enough, then he'd be able to show endeavor he was worth his attention again. that he could become the hero his father had told him he'd be. that he could achieve endeavor's mighty ambitions. even if it meant taking on his own brother in the race, touya would strive for it.
and truth be told, if the number one spot could be shared, if he and gojo ranked even, of course he'd share it with him! how proud would endeavor be if both his sons stood at the top! he'd be the proudest dad in the world, knowing his dream not only came true once, but twice. of course he'd be proud of them. and touya would be so damn happy, standing beside gojo in that place. might even cry. because sharing the spot with someone is far different than being displaced from it...]
You know what I mean. Someone who wants to destroy everything is a big bad villain. [touya frowns at his twin. yes he sounded like a villain! or even worse, like he was encouraging touya to become one, telling him to destroy everything that didn't say he mattered. that's a horrible, selfish way of looking at things, gojo!] Would you think someone who tried to destroy me because I didn't matter to them wasn't a villain?
[touya crosses his arms, halfway between a petulant pout and a serious focus.]
Yeah. I would. Because I'm your brother, and I'll knock some sense back into your head if I have to. That's what brothers do. They protect and support each other...
[even though it hurts to say those words, because he knows he's harbored some really nasty thoughts towards shouto, and touya's even been hurt by natsuo telling him to go talk to fuyumi sometimes when he came complaining about his existence to his little brother. gojo's been a major support in his life, so of course touya would fight him if his twin became a villain!]
I'd fight you to get you back, Gojo.
[sure, the idea of a "good person" is kind of vague, and touya's not blind to the reality that even "good people" have their own vices and problems. he doesn't think gojo's feelings towards him make him out not to be a good person. because he knows his brother would still protect people who are important to him in the end. the question makes him stare at his brother, surprised by it, then give him a confused, wondering look.]
You are a good person, Gojo. I... I want you to be happy. That's what I want.