Hn! (He makes another face at Touya's finger on his tongue. Though it's effective enough in distracting Gojo from the point.
He certainly didn't plan on flirting with other boys anymore. Even if they didn't say anything in terms of exclusivity, he felt like it was pretty obvious what the situation here was. You didn't just kiss your brother and then move on to something else, something less.)
Yeah, all right. (He trusts Touya more than anyone else in life, after all. And he knew Touya would wind up more impacted than he ever would be.
Did there even have to be a number one? Sometimes he wondered what his brother would do if Gojo trained just as hard and also wanted to be the number one hero? Could that rank even be shared? If it could, would Touya share it with him? It's a question he has always wondered. Wondering how lucky it was that Gojo didn't actually care. Would it have put a divide between them? He doesn't ask. He never asks. It was a hypothetical and he wasn't sure if he wanted to know the answer, knowing how Touya had felt towards Shoto.
He stares at Touya, unblinking.)
I think villain is a really arbitrary word sometimes. (Did he actually sound like a villain or was it just because he didn't sound enough like a hero? Granted, he agreed that Touya attacking their kid brother wasn't great. Even Gojo had felt for the kid, but that's when he had started to worry the most about Touya. It was like he spent every day holding his arms out and waiting for the inevitable collapse.
His eyes narrow slightly and he tips his head, considering his brother's words.)
So, what, would you go against me if I were a villain?
(There's some hurt in his tone, but mostly, he's curious.
Good person. What did that even mean? Gojo's eyes flicker dimly and he pulls away from Touya. He knew good people wouldn't want to destroy their father, he knew good people didn't fall in love with their brothers, he knew good people wouldn't do the things he would be willing to do for Touya. He knew he wasn't a good person, but having Touya have faith in him like that...)
[that's how he felt. if gojo was going to kiss him, and kept saying he loved him, touya wasn't ignorant enough to realize that it meant more to his brother than some simple fling. and he was going to return that same sort of seriousness as well. might not be the same kind of "love" that gojo was professing (he's 15, come on, gojo, he's not thinking about it in that depth, give him a few years), but his fondness and affection for his twin are high in touya's life.
as for what touya would do if gojo actively tried to become the number one as well? that's an easy answer: he would keep training and strive to become even stronger than even his twin! to become the strongest. that's what endeavor promised he'd become. and even if his father abandoned him, touya knows he has to earn his attention back. if only he could become strong enough, driven enough, then he'd be able to show endeavor he was worth his attention again. that he could become the hero his father had told him he'd be. that he could achieve endeavor's mighty ambitions. even if it meant taking on his own brother in the race, touya would strive for it.
and truth be told, if the number one spot could be shared, if he and gojo ranked even, of course he'd share it with him! how proud would endeavor be if both his sons stood at the top! he'd be the proudest dad in the world, knowing his dream not only came true once, but twice. of course he'd be proud of them. and touya would be so damn happy, standing beside gojo in that place. might even cry. because sharing the spot with someone is far different than being displaced from it...]
You know what I mean. Someone who wants to destroy everything is a big bad villain. [touya frowns at his twin. yes he sounded like a villain! or even worse, like he was encouraging touya to become one, telling him to destroy everything that didn't say he mattered. that's a horrible, selfish way of looking at things, gojo!] Would you think someone who tried to destroy me because I didn't matter to them wasn't a villain?
[touya crosses his arms, halfway between a petulant pout and a serious focus.]
Yeah. I would. Because I'm your brother, and I'll knock some sense back into your head if I have to. That's what brothers do. They protect and support each other...
[even though it hurts to say those words, because he knows he's harbored some really nasty thoughts towards shouto, and touya's even been hurt by natsuo telling him to go talk to fuyumi sometimes when he came complaining about his existence to his little brother. gojo's been a major support in his life, so of course touya would fight him if his twin became a villain!]
I'd fight you to get you back, Gojo.
[sure, the idea of a "good person" is kind of vague, and touya's not blind to the reality that even "good people" have their own vices and problems. he doesn't think gojo's feelings towards him make him out not to be a good person. because he knows his brother would still protect people who are important to him in the end. the question makes him stare at his brother, surprised by it, then give him a confused, wondering look.]
You are a good person, Gojo. I... I want you to be happy. That's what I want.
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Date: 4/21/22 08:49 (UTC)He certainly didn't plan on flirting with other boys anymore. Even if they didn't say anything in terms of exclusivity, he felt like it was pretty obvious what the situation here was. You didn't just kiss your brother and then move on to something else, something less.)
Yeah, all right. (He trusts Touya more than anyone else in life, after all. And he knew Touya would wind up more impacted than he ever would be.
Did there even have to be a number one? Sometimes he wondered what his brother would do if Gojo trained just as hard and also wanted to be the number one hero? Could that rank even be shared? If it could, would Touya share it with him? It's a question he has always wondered. Wondering how lucky it was that Gojo didn't actually care. Would it have put a divide between them? He doesn't ask. He never asks. It was a hypothetical and he wasn't sure if he wanted to know the answer, knowing how Touya had felt towards Shoto.
He stares at Touya, unblinking.)
I think villain is a really arbitrary word sometimes. (Did he actually sound like a villain or was it just because he didn't sound enough like a hero? Granted, he agreed that Touya attacking their kid brother wasn't great. Even Gojo had felt for the kid, but that's when he had started to worry the most about Touya. It was like he spent every day holding his arms out and waiting for the inevitable collapse.
His eyes narrow slightly and he tips his head, considering his brother's words.)
So, what, would you go against me if I were a villain?
(There's some hurt in his tone, but mostly, he's curious.
Good person. What did that even mean? Gojo's eyes flicker dimly and he pulls away from Touya. He knew good people wouldn't want to destroy their father, he knew good people didn't fall in love with their brothers, he knew good people wouldn't do the things he would be willing to do for Touya. He knew he wasn't a good person, but having Touya have faith in him like that...)
Do you want me to be a good person?
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Date: 4/21/22 19:27 (UTC)as for what touya would do if gojo actively tried to become the number one as well? that's an easy answer: he would keep training and strive to become even stronger than even his twin! to become the strongest. that's what endeavor promised he'd become. and even if his father abandoned him, touya knows he has to earn his attention back. if only he could become strong enough, driven enough, then he'd be able to show endeavor he was worth his attention again. that he could become the hero his father had told him he'd be. that he could achieve endeavor's mighty ambitions. even if it meant taking on his own brother in the race, touya would strive for it.
and truth be told, if the number one spot could be shared, if he and gojo ranked even, of course he'd share it with him! how proud would endeavor be if both his sons stood at the top! he'd be the proudest dad in the world, knowing his dream not only came true once, but twice. of course he'd be proud of them. and touya would be so damn happy, standing beside gojo in that place. might even cry. because sharing the spot with someone is far different than being displaced from it...]
You know what I mean. Someone who wants to destroy everything is a big bad villain. [touya frowns at his twin. yes he sounded like a villain! or even worse, like he was encouraging touya to become one, telling him to destroy everything that didn't say he mattered. that's a horrible, selfish way of looking at things, gojo!] Would you think someone who tried to destroy me because I didn't matter to them wasn't a villain?
[touya crosses his arms, halfway between a petulant pout and a serious focus.]
Yeah. I would. Because I'm your brother, and I'll knock some sense back into your head if I have to. That's what brothers do. They protect and support each other...
[even though it hurts to say those words, because he knows he's harbored some really nasty thoughts towards shouto, and touya's even been hurt by natsuo telling him to go talk to fuyumi sometimes when he came complaining about his existence to his little brother. gojo's been a major support in his life, so of course touya would fight him if his twin became a villain!]
I'd fight you to get you back, Gojo.
[sure, the idea of a "good person" is kind of vague, and touya's not blind to the reality that even "good people" have their own vices and problems. he doesn't think gojo's feelings towards him make him out not to be a good person. because he knows his brother would still protect people who are important to him in the end. the question makes him stare at his brother, surprised by it, then give him a confused, wondering look.]
You are a good person, Gojo. I... I want you to be happy. That's what I want.