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un: dabi

*cla-chick*

... what?

*growl*

[ that would be his omen ]

[ contact through his omni stone can be text, audio, or video.
contact through his omen can be visual, mental, or physical. ]

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From:

swellter

Not anyone can save or kill. It's a choice.

[ He meets that turquoise gaze easier than he ever did his father's. For one, there's no burning anger or outright dismissal. He cares what Touya has to say. ]

You're not 'No one' to me.

Or a failure.

From:

burnitblack

Think about what you just said and repeat it once ya understand your own words.

[touya drops his head back on the couch, not bothering to look anymore.]

Cute.

Too bad ya ain't that thing.

From:

swellter

I understand. I don't think you do.

[ It's always been a choice for him; always will be.

Ain't that thing? ]

Are you... saying I'm not a failure?

[ The exact opposite of everything you've told him since he first met you during their summer camp. ]

From:

burnitblack

Anyone can save. Anyone can kill. It depends on motivation.

[thus, it's always a choice. manipulated, coerced, forced, but still a choice.]

Of course you're not. You're the only one your parents gave a shit about.

Mom and dad's little perfect success.

From:

swellter

Not anyone can make that choice.

[ Same answer, different perspective, but that's not what he focuses on when Touya brings up their parents so casually. No one brings it up, but he knows his arrival ruined their family, especially their mother. ]

... I wasn't her success.

From:

burnitblack

You wanna test that?

[doesn't look at him, but his voice is pointed. amused. angry. bitter. sarcastic.]

Ya were till that thing poisoned you for her.

From:

swellter

No.

[ Firmly stated. He's not about to participate in anything close to what that implies. You're not remorseful, are you? Killing Bakugou? Killing that innocent woman? It leaves him thinking about the future, about the things he wanted. A shared meal... it feels further than ever. I thought that we could... that you could.. He shakes his head, half listening to that reply. ]

I thought I was the poison.

[ A corruption that took root and ruined his family. ]

From:

burnitblack

Thought so.

[that proves his point easily enough. everyone has their breaking point. shouto would kill and touya would save if their desires for something else overcame their resistance to the idea. simple as that. people are easy if you don't think about them so hard.

of course he's not remorseful. that would require him to feel something first.]

Enji was the one who ruined the family, Shouto.

From:

swellter

[ It proves that Shouto isn't willing to use people as guinea pigs. ]

Is that why you hate him?

From:

burnitblack

[don't challenge him if you're unwilling to take part in the test.]

One of the many reasons.

From:

swellter

[ Is everything always a challenge to you? ]

Is that why you hate me?

From:

burnitblack

[when it's worded as such, or someone's trying to "make" him feel or think a way he doesn't, then yeah, it's automatically a challenge.

he's no longer some bastard's pawn. he's free.]

One of many.

Ya seem real shaken by this, Shouto. Is it really that surprisin to ya that I'd kill someone outta revenge?

From:

swellter

[ Are you? You see challenges where there are none. Your every motivation stems from the same source. So, are you free?

It was my fault. For seeing something that wasn't there to begin with. ]

You killed someone out of pettiness.

From:

burnitblack

[don't ask him that question.

ever.

that's the issue. shouto still has hope. touya lost all of his a long time ago. all he has now is desperation and hate.]

Before ya go further, lemme ask ya somethin.

[this time, touya sits up and leans forward, arms dangling over his knees and looking at his omen with a cold, focused gaze.]

Didja give Bakugou shit for tryin to kill me earlier?

From:

swellter

[ It wasn't so long ago that he thought like you. Not the same degree, but the path he was walking lay in a similar direction. Newfound hope is a recent occurrence, one he's still trying to figure out for himself. ]

I know why he tried to kill you. The same way, I know why you tried to kill him.

What I don't understand is why you killed that woman. She had nothing to do with it.

[ Collateral damage. It implies so much more than simple revenge. If he was willing to kill an innocent bystander, what else was he willing to do? Collateral damage in the form of lives isn't something he'll ever be able to accept. Not from anyone. ]

Edited Date: 11/7/22 06:13 (UTC)

From:

burnitblack

[it's easier when you don't try to figure that shit out. this path is the one laid before him, and the one he's running down in a mad frenzy towards the raging hell of a culmination.

well, not here. here, it's all stopped.]

To make him stay and fight.

[touya pushes himself up from the couch, momentarily leaving view until his omen turns to follow him.]

Heroes always try to protect. It makes them predictable. I don't like it when people try to think for me, or decide what I'm gonna do. If he hadn't tried to run away and move the fight, assuming I'd chase him like some dog, then he would've been close enough to save her. Too bad for him. He wasn't smart enough to figure that out, or fast enough to stop me.

[yeah, collateral, but deliberate collateral. he would've left her alone if his opponent had focused entirely on him. but instead, bakugou split his attention to other people, when he should've been watching touya the entire time.

hawks made the same mistake and paid for it.]

Do ya hate me now, Todoroki Shouto?

From:

swellter

[ His fingers grip the sheets of the futon he's sitting on. Hearing him rationalize the irrational is too reminiscent of his childhood. Maybe that's why his throat grows tight with emotions that threaten to overwhelm him.

Fire and ice churn in his chest, melting and freezing a war-torn heart. He doesn't care about heroes. Doesn't he understand that? He doesn't care about villains. He just - his eyes water - he cares about you.

Tears fall in an empty room.

No more than a handful, but it's enough to clog his throat, making it impossible to answer. How-- How did he think that he could-- His mouth opens as if he means to speak, but only a cold mist comes out, and with it, the room drops in temperature. Cold, the pain recedes, and he's able to speak without breaking apart. ]

... No.

Edited Date: 11/8/22 03:19 (UTC)

From:

burnitblack

[it's the quiet that catches him. the sound of a throat sticking to itself. he remembers that sound, once or twice in his childhood, when he was close enough to hear it sniveling on the other side of a closed door. he also remembers making it himself, trapped in the quiet of the night, abandoned by natsuo, misunderstood by fuyumi, and replaced by shouto. with a mother who saw him as a troublesome chore, and a father who hated his very existence.

bastard. flaunting his ability to cry right in front of him. technically behind him, but... semantics.]

Ya really are crazy.

[of course he wouldn't hate him. heroes aren't supposed to hate someone. even if they say it, they don't understand what it means to truly hate someone. that black, bitter desire to relish in the target's complete misery and abject degradation until there's nothing left of them. heroes who hate, truly hate, are no longer heroes.]

Mah, who knows. [touya shrugs, rubbing the back of his head with one hand.] Maybe one day I'll end up savin him.

[just because he hates heroes doesn't mean he doesn't know how to "be" one.]

From:

swellter

[ The cold spreads. It starts in his chest and blooms out in all directions. Soon, his fingers lose their grip on the sheets and the agony in his chest recedes amid the crackling ice. His heartbeat slows along with his breathing, but it's familiar, comforting even, to be embraced by a winter storm. It helps open up his throat enough to speak, no longer clogged by emotions that render him useless. ]

I don't hate you.

[ You see, he also learned how not to feel. That was the thing that Endeavor taught him. The gift his mother left him with. A way to hold back the firestorm raging through him until he snuffed it out completely. Endeavor was livid when he stopped using his fire. Shouto couldn't even feel happy about it. The same way he couldn't feel happy about his brother killing his friends and innocent bystanders. ]

... But I can't accept you killing my friends either or innocent victims.

[ His line in the sand. ]

Edited Date: 11/8/22 04:51 (UTC)

From:

burnitblack

[touya glances over his shoulder at the cold that could almost be felt radiating through the shared image. so the little puppet was icing himself over. feelings are a bitch, aren't they.

whether it's simply a survival tactic, an outward expression of his feelings, or a veiled threat, touya waives it off. after all, the cold never bothered him.]

You think I give a damn about being 'accepted'?

[and he's killed so many people already.]

From:

swellter

I don't know what you care about.

[ And that's the problem. One he's barely beginning to figure out. ]

From:

burnitblack

Yeah you do. Ya just don't like to think about it.

[it's not a problem. it's easy. touya's not hiding it (anymore).

only, he can't really do much about it / with it here.]